So that's what we do here, seek help, make friends, get better and then watch those same friends, DIE!!!!??????? IS THAT WHAT WE DO HERE???????????? DAMN IT PEOPLE.... I KNOW....THERE ARE DAYS I WANT TO END MY PAIN TOO..... BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO DIE!!!!!!! NOTHING AND I MEAN NOTHING IN THE WORLD IS WORTH TAKING YOUR OWN LIFE OVER. NOTHING! PERIOD! I AM GETTING SICK AND TIRED OF WATCHING FRIENDS DIE? AREN'T YOU? PEOPLE SEEK HELP!!! PLEASE.....HELP IS THERE IF YOU JUST SEEK IT. I love you guys and it scares me to no end...when I see people on this forum whom helped me out, now stand at the brink. DONT DO IT! THIS TOO SHALL PASS. DAMN IT! Sorry for the vent!