I HATE EXAMS! I HATE COMPUTERS! I HATE MYSELF! I spent hours and hours and hours today typing up Psychology notes for my AS retake (yeah, AS retake, fucking pathetic :dry: I was ill on the day last summer so I only took it in the first place in January, if that makes it any less pathetic). The exam is on Tuesday :dry:. I only need to revise Social Psych, because that's the paper I fucked up last time, but there's a lot to it. I typed around 5,000 words, twenty-something pages. That's less than half of what I need to do. I was sick of typing so I decided to print off all I'd written. Get my boyfriend or someone to quiz me for an hour or so, give my fingers a break. The printer wouldn't work. Then the printer worked but neither computer would. All the meanwhile my boyfriend is being completely UNhelpful and I was getting more and more wound up. I always go mental around exams. Probably largely because I can never motivate myself to revise until the last minute. This is one reason why I hate myself. Even yesterday... I started typing, then got invited out for a "jazz cigarette", which turned into four, then I came back here, drank a bottle of wine, watched a film, and went to sleep. Useful :dry: . I am going crazy here. Or, I have already gone crazy. When it didn't work even after 45 minutes of fiddling around and about a dozen attempts, my boyfriend said "does it even matter that much?" because I was getting frustrated. That's about the least helpful thing... ARG! So I "went to have a shower", meaning that I went to cut my legs up in the shower. Then I drank half a bottle of wine in about five minutes. I have another glass balanced on my laptop. And I am still so wound up I can't think straight, never mind actually revise and take anything in. I just have a lot of pain in my legs! :sad: Fuck's sake. Fuck. FUCK! And tomorrow I have to waste at least 2 and a half valuable hours of cramming time to go to therapy. i.e. to go and see some woman who tells me every week I was seduced, not sexually abused. Great. I could explode!!!!!!