i dont understand how people can just make you feel like you can be happy, that you finally feel like you have someone, they can make you feel like you're going to be okay and then just like that, everything is gone. I've gotten used to being alone.. through my hardest time in my life i had absolutely no one, i had no friends and my family had no idea how i was feeling. i was good at hiding things. but then when it all got too much and i couldn't hide my feelings anymore and i lost my mind a few people came into my life and really made me feel okay. they helped me through a lot, one even saved my life... literally. but now none of them talk to me. after a while they realised how fucked up i actually am. after the 3rd hospital admission i think everyone just kind of gave up on me and realised i couldn't be helped. it's really sad. its sad they've treated me like this but i think its more sad how alone i am, and that i am okay with it. I'm used to it, i guess ive been alone most of my life, but now im really sad and being lonely isnt any help.