Agh, it's terrible. It's not even funny anymore. There don't exist words for anything. Vocabulary is so... limited. I just can't make it stop... :cry: It's so damn desperate. I want to die. Bad. And not even just occasioally. All the time. I don't even have anyhing constructive to say anymore. Ever. I want God to turn me off. Now. When did I get this way? A couple days ago? A couple weeks? A couuple months? Gradually? Suddenly? I'm boring and whiny. Like everyone else. I realize this. But I can't make my stupidity stop because I just can't. I want my mind to go away. I want it to GO AWAY. I want myself to go away. Fuck it. I think I'll send my sister somwhere, calm myself with heaps of medicine, and sleep the day away. Emo much? Emo. Much. WHINING, PATHETIC, ATTENTION WHORE. shut up shut up shut up. Why do I feel so guitly? Ha. It ain't gettin' better. I'm such a hypocrite. I want to be hated. Damn it. Goodnight. Fuck me and my nonsense. I'm shutting up.