I'm not sure where to begin... so perhaps, i'll just spit it all out. I'm Steve. I am 20 years of age, i am married, expecting my first child, unemployed, and an alcoholic. As of late all i can think about is how am i going to be able to support a child when i can barely afford to support myself due to lack of employment and my addiction. With these thought's brewing my mind begins to race and my heart beat rapidly..my stomach turns and i feel uncontrollable rage. This rage generally goes into two directions. I feel as if life for everyone would be alot better without me around and how easy it would be to just bleed myself out in the bathtub. I also feel like going out and getting belligerently drunk and just beating the ever living shit out of someone. Now, i'm unsure what do to.. more so than latter i feel the need to just hurt myself but i feel that's unfair to my family and i'd hate to do anything that would make them hate me. Family = Love Love = Happiness Happiness = Family See the equation? If anyone has any advice i'd be more than happy to accept it! thank anyone for taking the time out of their lives to read my pitiful little rant.