Why is my head so fucked up right now? Why am i so paranoid? Why am i finding it hard to trust certain people? Why can't i believe what they say? Why do i wanna drink all the time? Why do i drink and take my med's at the same time? Why do i think i know what i want but to scared to admit it? Why do they have to feel that way? Why do i have to feel this way? Why can't this be easier? Why can't i die? Why can't i go through with it? Why do i wanna take more pills right now? Why do i keep getting triggered by everything? i'll tell you why, cos i'm a complete fuck up. Who deserves to die. Who deserve the pain. Who doesn't deserve to feel good, only deserves pain. pain. pain. pain. Who does fuck all right. Who can never make anyone happy and will never make anyone happy. I deserve to die.