Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Sycotic_Sarah, Aug 16, 2007.

  1. :mad:

    I hate who I am. I hate it so much. My friend told me, well, not a friend, someone who I fancy a bit, said to me, 'so and so weight is way fit', I'm not that weight, it'll take me a few weeks to get at that weight, and if he thinks that's fit, then what I am? Fat, ugly, pathetic, worthless piece of trash! :sad: I'm never going near solid foods again. And if my stupid fat stomach don't like it, tough shit.

    I hate everything about me.
    No one likes me.
    No one cares.
    No one loves me.
    They all pretend.
    Just lie.
    They all lie.
    I'd rather shut the door on people than they shut the door on me.
    I don't want to be hurt again.
    I really don't.
    People misunderstand.
    They think this is a game.
    It's not.
    Life isn't a game.
    None of it is.
    It's reality.
    Reality for me, is,
    No one cares at all.
    No one gives a damn.
    Everyone lies.
    My life is fucked up.
    My brain is fucked up.
    My body is fucked up.
    My personality is fucked up.
    Everything is fucked up.

    I feel numb.
    So alone.
    No one here beside me, telling me they actually love me, they actually care, that'll it'll all be okay...

    I don't have that.
    Never have.
    Never will.

    I want to die.

    I'm so angry.
    So angry.
    Anger is all that shows now.
    That's it.
    Nothing else.
    It's all wrong.
    All... all... wrong...

    Nothing is right now.
    It's heading down hill.
    So fast.
    And it won't go back up again.

    I give up.
    Give up...
    like the coward I am...

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    I've never heard anyone say a certain weight is "fit" before. How stupid! After all it depends on body shape, height etc... that weight may look good on one person and awful on another. He also has probably NO idea what your weight is... for all you know he might be guessing you are that weight. Anyway, when all is said and done, it is one person's opinion and you should try not let it affect you so much.
  3. thank you the_evil :hug: