Do you rapid cycle? How do you keep sane? My mind has been jerking me around from panic, terrifying fear, fragile shakiness, deep sadness and depression, moments of calm, and once in awhile feelings of hypomania. I've been in treatment 30 years. Doctor has tweaked meds. I'm in therapy. I am bipolar 1 and anxiety disorder that borders on panic. Each moment of calm is accompanied by dread that I will be attacked by another symptom at any moment. I go for walks, color, have a dog, I just want a chance at life and not be mentally beaten down and reach my breaking point. Thank you (((all)))