I can't fucking believe you. I KNOW you want me dead. I KNOW you are plotting to kill me. I told you I knew, and that I wanted you to leave me alone and never contact me again. Now you start again? I know you STILL want me dead. I know that you are STILL plotting. And yet, this is about how much I have hurt you and fucked you up. I fucking told you to leave me alone, the same way I told everyone else, because I know you all want me dead. You have been hounding me, sending abusive messages, calling, trying to make me feel guilty, all to get a reaction from me. You want me to reply to you so that you can manipulate me to dying. I'm not fucking doing it! I'm not giving you anything to work with. I am not having anything to do with you. I panic when you phone, or when I get a text. I am terrified of what you might do, in your desperation, to kill me. You said you were sending something in the post, if I receive it I will be driving to a secluded place and throwing it out there so that if it's explosive it won't hurt my family. Yes, I want to die, and yes, I am dying, but I have a couple of things I need to do first. I want to die on MY terms, not when some person who wants me dead, decides that I die. Why can't you all just leave me alone. I spend my life scared, terrified, alone because of the fact you want me dead. Please, just please will you leave me alone. It's too much. I can't take it.