Just everything.. from school to family problems it just seems that so may things are crashing down, not only around me but also in my head. I don't have a phone to call a crisis line and even then, I wouldn't want to because of my trust issues and paranoia. I even lied to my therapist and so many other people it's ridiculous. I just, can't do it anymore and I don't think any amount of help can fix me at this point.