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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by AtomicsAsylum, Mar 5, 2010.

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  1. AtomicsAsylum

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    Living feels raw and painful
    death seems like the only answer
    Am i safe ? am i a danger to myself ?
    i dont know
     
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    :hug: What's going on? Want to talk about anything?
     
  3. AtomicsAsylum

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    having flashbacks all the time at the moment
    they feel so vivid
    inside abuse still going on for me
    Host is trying hard to stop it but the inside abusers never stop for any one

    Ink
     
  4. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    You said that the inside abuse is still going on. Do you mean the flashbacks, or is someone on the inside abusing you or hurting you?
     
  5. AtomicsAsylum

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    am being abused by one of the adults inside he is hurting me
     
  6. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    *safe hugs* if it's okay.
    Do you have a protector, if you do, do they know what's happening?
     
  7. AtomicsAsylum

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    no i dont have a protector but there is an alter who makes him leave me alone for a little while i could ask her to be my protector

    Ink
     
  8. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I think that's a good idea. You need someone who can protect you. Maybe the host can talk to one of the stronger alts to get them to keep you safe from the abuser.
     
  9. AtomicsAsylum

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    yea i can ask Ella if she could get a protector for me
    it would stop the abuser from getting to me

    thanks

    ink
     
  10. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I think that's a really good idea. *safe hugs* Tell Ella I said hi. :) It's been ages!
     
  11. AtomicsAsylum

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    Ella says hi back .

    Ink
     
  12. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Awesome!!! :D
    If you, or Ella, ever needs anything, PM me anytime!!
     
  13. AtomicsAsylum

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    It still hurts ... he will be around looking at me
    he will always be there

    Ink
     
  14. WildCherry

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    Who will, the alt who's hurting you?
    Has he been there all along, or is he a newer alt?
     
  15. AtomicsAsylum

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    he has always been there he was there before me
    Ink
     
  16. WildCherry

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    Has anyone tried to find out why he's doing it to see if there's a way to get him to stop?
     
  17. AtomicsAsylum

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    He says he is doing it because the outside abusers are coming back and he has to do his job .
    we have told him there not coming back but he is convinced that they are
    Ink
     
  18. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Did the outside abusers hurt him in the past?

    Has Ella tried talking to him, or maybe Ella's husband?
     
  19. AtomicsAsylum

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    Yea they hurt him

    Ella and Ella's husband have talked to him about it and he says he will think about stopping
     
  20. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I hope he stops!! Since he was hurt, it might be that the only way he knows how to act is by hurting someone else. But you don't deserve that.

    Does Ella have a therapist? It might help for you to talk to her, and even possibly for him to talk too.
     
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