Dont know whats wrong with me all i wanna do is run around like a chicken wih its head cut off. And self harm. Feel useless but at the same time i still feel the electricity running through my body. I'm smart enough not to run around screaming no matter how much i want to but SH is secret and hideable so i could do it. Feel like im being pulled up and down simultaneously. Theres no time for depression though must do something useful and worthwhile. No time to slow down must go be one with nature or something.