Sometimes I want to die, just end it, like pressing the re-start button. The only thing that keeps me living is that I keep thinking that if I die, I would rot in my appartment and my baby piggies would starve. I dont want my babies to starve or die. somedays its hard because I can't concentrate and everything around me seems to be bigger than it really is. I keep thinking of the things to do but its like it takes all my energy to actually do it....why can't I be like normal people?