re welcome me?

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by Starlite, May 7, 2011.

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  1. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    I don't know if anyone remembers me or not, but I hope you will re welcome me back, I need a little support at the moment,

  2. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    Hiya. Do you want to talk about what's brought you back? X
  3. Julia-C

    Julia-C Well-Known Member

    I don't remember you but I am kinda new. Either way, welcome back. :) I hope the support you need is something we can help with.
  4. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    hello and re-welcome to you!


    :hug: :hug: :hug:
  5. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Welcome back Karren, and I remember you...what is going on for you? J
  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi you want to talk let us know how we can help okay Welcome back hugs
  7. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    well i had this big long post typed out and lost it...


    so i am going to try again

    I remember you too Sadeyes

    I've had some childhood memories come to surface. Some bad ones that only now I remembered. I don't know why they stay buried for so long and just now came to light. They are horrible and on top of that, Me and my brother have had a falling out. I am in therapy and she is a great therapist and we are working on these issues, slowly as to not overwhelm me. But I don't tell her how i really am feeling. I am scared. Even when in therapy some days when we are talking all i want to do is curl up in a ball in a corner on the floor somewhere in her office , but i don't because the adult in me feels too embarrassed to do such a thing.

    Then some days when i am feeling at my lowest point that I don'tknow whether i want to live or die, i put all my pills in my purse and drive to her office and sit in her parking lot (on the weekends when her office is closed) and think i can sit here and take all these pills and noone will find me until monday morning. Part of me wants to live, part of me wants to die.

    I am fighting myself hard to stay alive...and that is why i came here...i want to keep fighting, but i feel weakened, and i need help someone here help me fight my fight please?
  8. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hi Karren, Welcome back!! I was wondering what ever happened to you.. I'm sure you will get more replies..Stick around and let us help, o.k.??
  9. hollowvoice

    hollowvoice Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    hi karren this part of your post stuck out to me

    Part of me wants to live, part of me wants to die.

    thats good that part of you want to live it means you still have hope and while you have that then you have a future,i hate the low points in this life and all the bad thoughts they bring with them ,but you need to listen to the part of you that wants to live

    oh and welcome back im hollowvoice nice to meet you xx
  10. tweetypie

    tweetypie Antiquities Friend

    *hugs* were all here to help each other hun your not alone xx
  11. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    I will be around when I am able to be. Good to see your familiar "face" here stranger
  12. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    Nice to meet you hollowvoice:

    That part of me that wants to live is the part of me that wonders what the future would hold that didn't have the past that holds onto me! That part that wants to die is the part that holds on the past that somehow never lets go. I know that talking about the past and letting a trusted person in and opening up slowly is what it is all about, i do that bit by bit, or am starting to with my therapist , and her only , but for some reason, right now, it isn't enough.
  13. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    Welcome back :)

    I hope things get better for you soon.

    -Sam x
  14. Starlite

    Starlite Senior Member

    ty sam
  15. ~Claire

    ~Claire Well-Known Member

    Welcome back Karren :hug:.

    Claire xx
  16. black orchid

    black orchid Well-Known Member

    Welcome back to the forum Karren :)
  17. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    hi and altho i dont know you, welcome back, i am sure nothing has changed since your last visit, everyone seems nice and supportative and i guess that is what brought you back.

    i can half relate to childhood stuff resurfacing so long after...i am therapy for something else, and wham! it unearthed something i would have rather stayed buried and it can interfere with healing. as it is a new memory you try not to acknowledge it as real and maybe this is why at the moment its hard for you to cope as you have not yet acknowledged it as a reality, and having a falling out with you bro is just another issue to upset you. stick with the therapy, in time you will know when it feels right to open up. i think many here doesnt tell therapist how they truly feel, its hard to hand your heart and soul to a stranger. maybe keep a diary of how you feel day to day and take it to each session and let therapist read it, that way you dont have to say anything.

    hope we can help you to stay here :hug:
  18. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    hey I hope that we can help

    I think that if you could tell your therapist theses things, or at least some of these things, it might help

    could you write her a letter?
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