I believe I have decided how to go about killing myself. I won't give details except to say I have formulated a plan. It is quite possible I would have done it this week, if not for 2 of my kids being home sick. I need to find a time and a place because I absolutely cannot carry this out at home and run the risk of one of my children finding me. I feel so sorry for what it will do to them but I know that in the long run me being gone will increase their chances of a better life. My husband is a good man and I have no doubt that he will remarry and she will deserve the children more than I do.
I absolutely had hoped not to have to resort to this but I have wasted to much time begging God to take me in an accident or illness.
I don't know why I am telling anyone this but I needed to get it off my chest.
mommy
I absolutely had hoped not to have to resort to this but I have wasted to much time begging God to take me in an accident or illness.
I don't know why I am telling anyone this but I needed to get it off my chest.
mommy