Never thought I would be posting on here, but recently, it's just come to the point where I don't know if I can take it anymore. What's funny is, I'm generally a very happy, bubbly person, and in the past, have never once even considered suicide as the easy way out. A few weeks ago, I received news from my doctor of a health issue that I won't go into. Let's just say it's an infection and it will eventually require surgery to get completely cleared. (Currently on the waiting list) At this current point in time, I am taking antibiotics to help manage the issue. These antibiotics are making me feel even worse with some very major side effects, and the doctor is refusing to change the antibiotics because he claims that they are actually helping with the infection. (Besides the fact that I am feeling worse by taking them then I was not taking them) The side effects seem to be on and off but are now getting worse, and I don't think I can take it. On top of this, school is keeping me well stressed out, and I don't think it's fair. I also work part time and it's not helping the situation, as I find myself waking up on days I have to work and crying. This, on top of a few social issues has triggered thoughts in my mind that I have never thought before, including OD'ing, hanging myself and cutting, and I don't think I can take it anymore.