I have been feeling down for more than a year now but recently in the past two to three months I have completely gone into depression. Over eating and sleeping and feeling weak every second of the day is something usual for me. I am almost 18 and have no dreams or hopes or ambitions left inside me. My parents killed those dreams and my self confidence with it. When I told my parents and sister what I was going through on the day of my birthday they did not believe me. My friends wrapped up in their problems do not understand me and at the moment I have no professional help around me at all. Every day for me is a struggle to keep walking or talking or studying. None of the things I used to enjoy give me pleasure anymore. Going to school is a struggle as I am not able to stay awake during classes and in order to stay awake I am drinking black coffee everyday which makes me jittery but helps me stay awake to study. I wish everyday that today would be my last day but alas I am still here and ready to get help from anyone who could give me some way to keep moving on with life.