Hi everyone, I am reaching out for help here, as I have this sinking hopeless feeling nowadays again. It's bad again because I am very unmotivated to do anything, and in doing nothing I realize that I am sinking myself into further financial issues, and that makes me feel like I have anxiety. I am single, don't speak with my parents/sister, as they purposely make me feel worse about myself, and I work from home, so I don't have much interaction with anyone. I recently lost the support of my only close relatives, who had been really good to me for some time, and who I confided in about my issues. But now it seems that they have been "playing me". I now wonder if they ever really cared about me and my issues, or if they were just satisfying their own curiosity. I could be wrong, but I can't think of any other reason. In that respect, I'm also somewhat happy that I never told them my deeper issues. Add a recent dispute (including them doing certain things that I asked them not to do, but to trust me on it) and we're not on speaking terms now. I feel betrayed and it will be hard to trust anyone now. I've become intolerant of people's general BS also. As an example, a friend got divorced and she moved back near me last year and needed support, which I provided. Now, she's got a new place, new job, and hence new friends, and when I need support, she's not there for me. I may be able to accept that, but now she plays games like saying she'll call me back, then doesn't, and today she's calls and says that she's waiting for me to call her. So I politely told her that I have no time for these games and we ended the call quickly. I am not self-destructive... I've pretty much stopped drinking, never done drugs, and I don't cut myself. I want to be in my senses as it helps me think through my situation and options. But in my unmotivated state, I can't seem to do anything about it, and whatever I do is not working. I need help. I don't need a suicide hotline or other quick chat, but I need someone who can listen to my situation and provide answers, and that will take more than one phone call. I've tried a professional in the past, and was very jaded by the process/system. I would still consider a professional, but I can't afford to go experiment with many different ones for many sessions each at hundreds of dollars each time. I have no health insurance. Someone else suggested that there may be psych services for low-income people, but I still have not found any in my area. I'm really trying to find answers to fix my situation, and without support I can't do this by myself anymore. Anyone have any ideas I can try. Thanks for anything you can help me with, Yada.