I'm reaching out for help...at this point in time I feel like my only way out of all the mess I'm in is to end it all. I'm lying in bed and looking at the medication I have left for the month and wondering if it would be enough for me not to wake up again in the morning. I gravely miss my late boyfriend and want to be reunited with him, if I go will he be waiting to greet me on the other side? No matter how much I talk to my parents or friends, no one wants to really listen and help...the answer I get is pull yourself together and think positive - that doesn't work for me! It only makes me feel worse. Whilst I know that deep down they love me, I get the impression sometimes that they brush my issues under the carpet because they don't want to deal with it. If I talk to my psychiatric nurse, I feel that while she sits there on the home visits and nods her head sympathetically she really doesn't give a toss about how I'm actually feeling. The same with the doctors I saw before Christmas. I spoke to a good friend at my last place of work and told her the situation and the fact that I felt the only way they would listen to me seriously would be if I attempted suicide, even though it's not something I ultimately want to do....but I can't take the feeling of wanting to end things away from my brain.... What do I do? I'm fed up of crying and being exhausted. I'm fed up of being in debt because I'm not in work. I'm fed up with my life in general, I want to go back to a simpler time before I was assualted at University when I was happy, confident and full of dreams...but that is never going to happen HELP!!!!!!!!