Hi, I've just joined today. Never done this before, achalay never been on a forum before. Anyway, I am a 46 year old man, 2 young children, my wife wants a divorce and I have lost my job. Everything I have worked for over the last 30 years I have lost. I am living in a rented room, see my children once a week (who I love and miss so much). I am trying to find another job, but this is proving harder than I first thought. I haven't told my ex wife yet that I have lost my job. I feel like such a loser. I can't see any future at all at the moment. My ex wife has the house, the kids, a job she enjoys and seems to have enough money to buy herself a new car, outfits all the time and go out while I struggle to pay the bills. I don't hate my wife, but she don't seem to understand what it's like for me. Whenever she was down (and that was a lot) I would be there for her. Asking for some sort of support from her was hard. I would be called a 'baby' or 'it's like having a teenager around the house', etc. Sometime, well most of the time I feel like there is no way out. I love my children so much, I can't bear the thought of leaving them behind, but in a way I feel it might be for the best. The house will be payed for, and I am well insured, so there will be security there and hopefully my ex will find someone who is decent. I know this sounds like shit, but even if I get a job soon, I still don't know I am going to pay for everything. I know what you are going to say, so that's fine. I think I just wanted to get it out.