This is not like me. I don't reach out or talk to people. I keep things bottled up, but obviously it's not working for me. I need help. I need someone to talk to. I can't deal with this anymore. Suicide is the only thing I can think of that would ease my pain, but I don't want to die. I just want to feel better but I don't have the strength. I can't cope. I'm all out of ideas. What should I do?