Really shitty night here....bored, lonely, cold, crappy day....I'm sick of the ups and the downs, the backs and the forths. Everyone says it is supposed to get better, but the truth of hte matter is that it doesn't. The memories are coming back and i'm sick of remembering them all.... I realize you all don't know me...i'm new here....or old here....i don't even want to be here. they say i'm supposed to reach out, but how the hell do you do that?