Two years ago, I successfully killed myself and was clinically dead for around 30 minutes. The only reason I was brought back to this hell is because someone saw my body in the woods and actually started resuscitation. <mod edit - guidelines> So why am I here you may ask? Because before I go, I really wish that I could experience what I experienced in "heaven", right here on Earth. Maybe there is a place to go (physically/mentally) here on Earth that could match, or even be better than what I experienced? I highly doubt it, but I won't know if I don't ask.