So close to committing suicide. I have no hope right now, nothing I do is right. I have not had a night as dark as this in so long. I'm ready to sleep and never wake up again. Desperately wish I could talk to someone. I've picked a date and everything. I'm not meant to walk this world. Thought of telling a friend, but I don't want her to feel bad if I do commit. I don't want her to have that responsibly. It's easier to just kill myself and no one have known.