I feel ready to end it all. Fours years of pain and misery. Four years of of wishing I watching friends all so happy and content. Four years of backstabbing and dishonesty toward me when all I have ever done was look out for others. I fell sick but feel ready if I was tied up ready to be shot upon by a firing squad. I hate feeling inferior to everyone all the time. As a child and teenager I was full of confidence, now in my 20's I am a wreck of nerves and anxiety. Somebody help, maybe I don't deserve help actually. Tried to OD didnt work. I'm so sick of life, I know many of you feel the same, Do you have the strength? I can't let go of anything.