I am 40 years old, and have been struggling with depression since I was a teenager, when I attempted suicide. I have taken many different anti-depressant medications, and they just don't work for me. Church doesn't do it for me either, so please don't suggest that I find god. I have tried so hard to function in this world, and I am tired of trying. I just don't fit. There is no reason for me to be here. I don't have any relationships left; in fact I have almost no human interaction at all. When I am gone, no one will notice. I don't think I can go on much longer. I am just trying to gather my courage to end it once and for all.