All i can think about is how I am going to end my life. I simply want to do it as quietly and peacefully as possible. I guess that I am in a catch 22. I am can get fired from my present job if i go get help, and I have no hope of finding another good paying job because of my lack of education. I am struggling every day, and every day is a challenge just to go to work, sleep, or do anything. I also promised my best friend that I would be at his wedding in a month. I am happy for him, but at the same time, it hurts me inside when I see him with such a wonderful woman, yet I cant even get a first date. I feel like I am a loner walking in the middle of a desert without any food or water. I am emotionally drained on every level.:itachi: