i am new here, was suicidel earlier in the week, having a real hard time with it, but couldnt figure out how to post i gave it a few more days, then all of a sudden today it seems like it will be ok if i do it. if i went off my meds, all would be ok to do it. so it is clear now what is to be done. been off meds for a couple of days now don't think of it as selfish, cause in my case it is not. it is better for everyone else if i'm gone i am not a teenager, have lived a while now, but it is my time to go. don't know why i'm posting this, it just all seems clear now. does someone understand this?