Wanna so f*cking bad!! im in tears with my knife on my lap ready to do it!I can't handle this I can't :cry: So damn worried that im ready to just give it all up. I'm more damn suicidal than i've ever been :sad: You know what who cares, i don't so whatever ..................... see if i've got the courage right now. Down a few pills in a min make it easier, will get done tho! so f*ck it!!