ready to go, everything is set to go - got all i need and finally found a place. funny i don't feel anything, nothing, zip, nada, zero. i thought i'd feel relief that it's about to end but i don't. i just have to choose the time carefullly is all, but this time no one will find me. how stuipd that was. i look back and think about it and i did my best i couldn't do anymore than i did. i took every pill they gave me, went to every group, every hospital all for nothing. life took everything i loved every time i thought i was seeing the light something took it away again. i know some people make it to the end and get out but not everyone like i told the nurse the last time some people just can't be fixed and i guess i'm one.