hi all, well yesterday tried an failed. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> went back to where i grew up, relived old memories as a kid. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> heard police sirens thinking maybe the police dogs wll find me! made it home eventually sick and sleepy most of the night. visited g.p this morn i told her wasnt going to though. referred me in crisis to psychiatrist asap. have app in 2wks time but cant wait til then! i felt relieved that it was all going to be over soon but here i am! my therapist said only you can save yourself, i did but only from DEATH, its life i cant get a handle on! i was in control yesterday and i felt good and at ease. i wish i had a switch to turn off my thoughts cos its them that take me to the edge. why dont i consider those around me? quite a stigma attached to suicidal people. you have to know and feel it to understand! thanks guys, glad i found the SF! mart.