real bad day made it though!

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by martinculling, Mar 17, 2010.

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  1. martinculling

    martinculling Member

    hi all, well yesterday tried an failed. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> went back to where i grew up, relived old memories as a kid.
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    heard police sirens thinking maybe the police dogs wll find me! made it home eventually sick and sleepy most of the night.
    visited g.p this morn i told her wasnt going to though. referred me in crisis to psychiatrist asap. have app in 2wks time but cant wait til then!
    i felt relieved that it was all going to be over soon but here i am!
    my therapist said only you can save yourself, i did but only from DEATH, its life i cant get a handle on! i was in control yesterday and i felt good and at ease. i wish i had a switch to turn off my thoughts cos its them that take me to the edge. why dont i consider those around me? quite a stigma attached to suicidal people. you have to know and feel it to understand!

    thanks guys, glad i found the SF!
    mart.
     
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  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I'm glad you're still here, and that you found us. Please keep talking!!
     
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