I dont want to be alone any more, I feel sad and pathetic. And I should just relize there must be a reason im alone. Its not because my personality, its not cause I have so much to offer. Its cause im straight up ungly, im tired of trying to appear confident its not working. there is no distracting my mind from it, I see elderly couples holding hand. It takes all thats in me not to cry. Im happy for them, I really am. I just know it will never be me. i just want to be ok knowing that I will die alone. im going to go throw myself a pitty paty now. Ifhms. Iwiwd.