Everytime I voice my feelings, I feel like I'm playing the victim. Yes, I am guilty of things and I am not a good person, but there is only so much responsibility I can take. I am so tired of everything wrong, especially in my family being dumped on me. I have no means to get away, I don't have the balls to kill myself....I'm just tired and angry that I feel hopeless. I'm sorry for not being more detailed but even writing is becoming too much for me to do anymore.