I am such a let down. The one day he was excited for and has been for a long time and I have ruined it. Read throuhlgh his phone. He has told people about the pills in my bag and is angry with me. They all think I am selfish and are angry with me. I am putting him through hell. I cant take hurting him anymore.
Really Fucked It This Time
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I have said sorry to him but he just ignores me. I cant have therapy at the moment as they rejected my referral because I am too complex for CBT currently, apparantly. I have a CPN but I wont be able to ring till Monday and I see himon wednesday anyway. How can I tell my fiance how I feel when he gets so mad and pissed when he wont let me explain the pills in my bag. Hes already made up his mind. I think he thinks I am beyond help. Him and his friends have already made a judgement and I cant even explain myself. 
thank you for thw help guys though I really appreciate it so thank you once again you have kept me going the past couple of days so i cant thank you enough xxxxxxxxx
thank you for thw help guys though I really appreciate it so thank you once again you have kept me going the past couple of days so i cant thank you enough xxxxxxxxxI tried once again to explain things last night. All he did was turn his back to me and ignore me. I know I upset him by what he found but I tried so hard to make the rest of his day nice. I treated him to lunch, bought him a giant tub of popcorn and ice blasts, offered to buy him pick and mix just things I knew he would like to make his day good. I was happy and at the time genuinely excited and was affectionate beyond belief. All he did was have a face on all day. I tried to make his special but I failed. This morning he has shouted at me because he ordered a parcel for him but in my name so my mum wouldnt think he was oedering things for himaelf. Except I didnt know this I just knew he bought a book off amazon for £3. So I opened it infront of my mum and then I twigged what it was but I just said oh its Bens book for uni that he got for £3. I came back upstairs and he claimed he had told me about the book in my name but he didnt and shouted at me calling me brains of britain etc. Why is he giving me such a hard time when all I am trying to do is put thing right????
Ok now I'm pissed off 
He has no business making you his whipping boy
You went out of your way to try to rectify the day and all he's done is chuck it in your face.
At first, I put it down to him worrying, but the book thing no excuse for that whatsoever!
Derogatory remarks and trying to make people feel small are not on!
Tell him to stop or piss off!
He has no business making you his whipping boy
You went out of your way to try to rectify the day and all he's done is chuck it in your face.
At first, I put it down to him worrying, but the book thing
no excuse for that whatsoever!Derogatory remarks and trying to make people feel small are not on!
Tell him to stop or piss off!
I can understand him being mad after the shock of finding the pills but he should have been supporting you soon after and not doing this.
He is being a true ass to put it politely and sounds like he will only stop when he has had enough gratification from putting you down at the time when you need support most.
Fook that, leave him to it and find support from somewhere else if your not getting it from him.
Once he realises he isn't getting the attention (that you should be getting right now), any more he will probably come running back anyway..
He is being a true ass to put it politely and sounds like he will only stop when he has had enough gratification from putting you down at the time when you need support most.
Fook that, leave him to it and find support from somewhere else if your not getting it from him.
Once he realises he isn't getting the attention (that you should be getting right now), any more he will probably come running back anyway..
Well my lovelies I am feeling somewhat better than I was this morning. I walked out this morning because I couldn't take the tension anymore. My suicidal urges were extreme I had to get out of the house. I left him a note to say I had to get some air and that I loved him. He then text the usual you don't care you selfish bitch texts. I got home a while later and just snapped. I told him I wanted to kill myself. I just said it how it was. I lost it. I then collapsed in a heap and he held me while I cried. Since then he has been a lot more supportive and has listened to me. So I am feeling a little better. I can get through today at least. I feel a little relieved. So much better than I have been feeling.
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