I made a suicide attempt on Thursday night and my mom called an ambulance and I was taken to the hospital (we live in the same house) and she never showed up. The next day she flipped out at me, calling me a selfish bitch and every other name in the book. Anytime I express that I'm upset or suicidal, this is what I get: flipped out at and told I'm nothing but a stupid selfish bitch. Thing is, I have HEARD her say to other people AND EVEN TO MY FACE SO MANY TIMES THAT I'M NOTHING BUT AN INCONVIENIENCE AND BURDEN TO HER LIFE. I try SO HARD to be "normal" and "perfect" but is it ever good enough for her? No, and it never will be. I would move out if I had the money or anyone to go to, but I don't. So I'm fucked until I die basically. And she NVER admits to what she did wrong, to her, she's perfect and is never wrong, if I point out something I feel she did wrong, she flips out and says nasty things to me. This has been going on for a looooong time now, and I'm SICK OF IT. It started when I was 12 years old, in September 2002, and I got a bit of a "break" for about a couple of years from September 2003 to I have no clue when. Then, for three months in 2007 she treated me like shit, and I didn't know why. And then, in May 2009 after my ex-boyfriend did some pretty nasty stuff to me and I told her (while she was drinking) she broke my laptop in half and said it was all my fault that she did it. And then in late June 2009 I got a bit of a break, but the bitchiness started up again in October 2009 and has been ongoing since. I have tried suggesting we get a family relationship counsellor or something but will she agree? No, because according to her, it's all MY FAULT and she NEVER does anything wrong. And it's pretty rare for her to apologize, I can count on one hand how many times she's apologized over the years, especially since she's decided that she hates me or whatever. I feel like saying to her if she ever apologizes again "What do you need to apologize for? You're K.S., the exception to the rules! K. NEVER apologizes!!!!" I am just so sick of it all. I don't expect her or anyone to "kiss my ass" but to constantly be called down to dirt by saying stuff like "you're nothing but a selfish bitch" and such when I don't show any rudeness or anything, not in my tone or anything, gets pretty tiring.