I've had an extremely difficult week, and am now having therapist issues. If you don't mind, I could really use some help sorting thru this. I was what some might consider in-patient for the past 1.5wks. Technically, I learned it's a residential program. It's kind of like a transition place only I went straight to this place, and didn't go (actual) IP first. Anyways, they encourage folks to continue to do their normal things like therapy or groups (outside) while there. For the past month my outside therapist had been encouraging me to go to this one group on Fri mornings, but for one reason or another there were hurdles to being able to go. Well, while I was at that place I learned those hurdles no longer existed, and I was actually feeling up to checking it out to see if it would be something I would be interested in doing on a regular basis. So while 'inside' I called my outside therapist to find out what time it started. She returned my call on Thurs afternoon, and because I was still in that place she told me I couldn't go to the group. She was thinking I was actually IP when in reality I wasn't which is why she told me no. However, I was told by the inside therapist it was okay to do. The outside therapist was also more worried about billing than my making it there. Because she was thinking I was IP she wasn't even sure I could be billed for going to the group which is part of why she said no about my going. I tried to tell her the inside therapist said it was fine to go, but my outside one didn't care to hear it. She was totally dismissive of everything I said, and she wasn't even willing to look into it, either. I was SERIOUSLY offended, and became terribly ticked off which is exceedingly rare for me. As a result I decided I will never go to that group. Well, I told the inside therapist about the experience, so he tried to call my outside one to explain things so she could learn it would even work with billing and also share with her that she triggered me. He told me she seemed to be dismissive of him as well. She just told him for me to go in and talk to her about how she triggered me, and she didn't care to hear anything else he had to say. Here's where it gets tricky. Her and I had a good relationship until earlier last week she decided to talk about me in a team meeting, and my last therapist was a part of that meeting. My new therapist was trying to get some opinions on how to help me because I only seemed to be getting worse. (Turns out my thyroid is why I was getting worse.) Her co-workers, last therapist included, gave her some ideas, and now she's completely dismissive of me. I'm suppose to meet with her next Tues, but now I don't want to. After all, if she's not even willing to listen to one of her co-workers (the inside therapist) then what makes me think she'll bother listening to me? I would be open to asking for a new therapist, but unfortunately they only allow you to change one time, and I've already done that. So now I don't know what to do. If I quit therapy then I will never be able to get help for the reason I began going again in the first place, but if I stick with this one I'm going to have continual trust issues. I was willing to try to talk thru this with her until I learned she was dismissive of the inside therapist, too. I insisted on being released yesterday, but am now starting to regret that choice. Not sure it was actually in my best interest to do so cuz serious suicidal thoughts are coming to mind now. I haven't experienced it like this in a LONG time. My trust is shattered. Any thoughts or suggestions??