I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow morning, and I'm currently not in a horrible place, but I've been having a really bad struggle with suicidal depression and crippling anxiety. Randomly I get into this mindset where everything is so overwhelming and unbearable, I just can't handle it. I feel like I should just kill myself to end all the thoughts. It's like bad thoughts just force their way into my mind and won't leave, and I can't get out of it. It's only happened to me 3 times in my life, but it just recently happened as of two days ago. And it lasts anywhere from an hour to days. I can't even describe how it feels, but I really hope someone can tell me what it is. I've been diagnosed as bipolar 2 with panic disorder. Please give any advice you can, I have no idea what is causing this, and I don't know what to do. I can't keep living in fear that this will happen again, and I can't keep going through this.