Hey everyone, not sure if i'm posting this in the right place but here goes anyway.. I have been diagnosed with depression, Post traumatic stress and borderline personality disorder. Lately I have been really struggling with the depression it's getting worse and worse. i've never felt so low in my life. I feel hopeless, tired, miserable and just want to die. I self harm daily and overdose 3 or 4 times a week. I never go to hospital or seek treatment for the overdoses, i just want to die. I can feel myself getting lower and lower every day. I'm under the so-called 'care' of a mental health team but i'm having a real problem with them. They don't listen to me and they will not do anything to help treat my depression. I've tried 4 anti depressants (Prozac, Citalopram, mirtazipine and venlafaxine) but none of them were very effective. because of this it's been decided that medication is not necessary. I'm having CAT therapy (because of borderline personalitiy disorder) but it's not helping and i've been doing the other usual things to try and make myself feel better (going out, getting involved in activities). So i'm just being left to suffer and have now come to the conclusion that death is the only way out now. I'm not going to get any better because no one will help me. I realise that I have to help myself but sometimes it's not enough and i struggle. so i turn to other people for help and i get nothing. I dont' know what to do anymore. It's like everyone has given up on me. I wanted to ask everyone here. Am i expecting too much from other people? I've looked at NICE guidelines and other information on treating depression and i just don't understand why i'm not being helped. Maybe they all have given up on me and they know that i'm never gonna get better so why bother with me?