On friday night my mum and her boyfriend were having a right go at me because of my problems he was moaning at me and calling me selfish because i wasn't considering others with my problem. But i do it's why i keep everything bottled up so they don't worry. my mum was flipping out because i don't like people touching me cause of my OCD thing and shouting at me as if i can just stop like that. My mums boyfriend then attacks me in the kitchen shoving his forearm up against my throat and pushing me to the side but i fought back and did the same thing to him. Then later when things calmed down and he started talking he said that i should meet him half way with the blame when it was him who goddam attack me. Then on top of that he adds a death threat saying if i try and take him on he'll bury me. My mum knows about this and did nothing she doesn't care that he attacked me and gave me a death threat i mean for christ sakes she's supposed to be my mother. Meanwhile i'm just supposed to suck it up and keep this bottled inside because if i was to let it out i would end up beating him to death. The next day it was so hard to restain myself from doing something to him that i ended self harmimg pretty badly just to goddam stop myself from doing something. So what am i supposed to do about this no matter how hard i try to explain my problems no will understand and it just ends up in an arguement i have no one who understands no one to be there for me i hate these people so goddam mother fucking much. i am finding it so much harder to restrain myself and just feel that someting is going to snap and that i am going to end hurting a lot of people maybe even killing them with all the rage i have inside. what am i to do how do i control it. why can't anyone just understand and help why can't someone care.