Hey everyone. Just a terrible terrible night. I talked to my ex again like I do every few months..hoping theres some small chance she still loves me, or we could get back together. Ends the same way every SINGLE time. I end up crying, wishing I was dead and saying I'll never do it again. Thats literally my entire life..doing the same stupid things over and over no matter what. Like in some sick way I'm almost addicted to the pain..cause at least pain I feel. Otherwise I'm numb. Is anyone else this way? I wish I could somehow type all my problems and how fucked up my life is in this thing but..it'd fill a novel. I know I'd never have the guts to end it but times like this..I just don't want to go on you know?