yesterday this guy who lives in my block of flats two doors up from me smashed my car up. He thought i had got his car towed away because it was parked illegally. i had nothing to do with it. it turned out it was some other guy who got it towed away but he thought it was me so smashed my car up. by the time he realised this it was too late, the damage had been done. Now i'm terrified of him. he's really angry and i'm scared he might do something else to me because i reported him to the police. I can't live in my flat anymore. what if he comes after me? but i have nowhere else to go. I'm alone and so, so scared. I can't go on living anymore. too many bad things keep happening to me and i can't take it anymore. i don't know what i have done to deserve this. i've only lived in my flat for 3 months and i'm not managing at all. I'm lonely and i haven't been able to manage my tenancy very well. I've failed big time. I can't do anything, i always find a way to mess things up. i'm so useless. all this time i didn't want to believe things were as bad as they are. i tried to tell myself everything is ok. now i realise things are really, really bad. i've decided i can't live like this anymore. it's been going on for too long. nothing will ever change. life just gets worse and worse. over this weekend i'm going to make some serious attempts at killing myself. I HAVE TO DO THIS. I can't take it any longer.
So i guess this is goodbye. Thank you to everyone who has supported me on here.
So i guess this is goodbye. Thank you to everyone who has supported me on here.
