I am really struggling right now. I lost my job in January, and up until now, have managed to pay my bills. But, my ability to do this has come to an end. For the first time in my life, I can't pay my bills, and am struggling to come to a solution other than suicide. I just missed my mortgage payment and paying my credit cards for the first time in my life. Ending my life and letting those around me collect my life insurance and pick up the pieces is the only solution I have at the moment. I really don't want to hurt my kids, my girlfriend, my mom, my ex wife...but the prospects are dim, and I really don't know what else to do. I'm really taking it a day at a time, an hour at a time...not sure how this story is going to end. Funny, 10 years ago my net worth was over 1 million...now I can't pay my bills. I've contemplated bankruptcy, but then what? I pray to God to help me...but I haven't found any answers yet. And, I really don't know what kind of answers you have...but I'm scared, and not sure how much longer I can live with all this stress.