I am basically at the end of my struggle. I am loosing my job, have no friends, living with my parents, debt up to my eyeballs, and medical issues that are driving me nuts. I see no reason to keep living! I dont want to tell my parents, but I am just tired of living! Whats sad is that I am going to go out of this world having never experienced love, or a simple kiss of a woman, no college degree, never having a future, nor kids of my own, nor even caring anymore about anything. I am just tired! I am just exhausted of lying to myself everyday to get out of bed, and saying that I can get through this day. Its over! I wont be hitting my 38th birthday, and I simply dont care if I do!