Yesterday,I went a christmas parade in the city I live in. I knew that I would feel a bit out of place being there by myself, but i went anyway. And yeah....the feeling of lonliness hit me hard. So many couples and families and I felt not only beneath them, but like I don't deserve to have what they have and that is happiness. Afterwards, I went to an AA meeting and wanted to share what I was feeling, but I was afraid that I would get a bunch of old timers in the room saying "quit whining" or " don't drink no matter what" The last one is like telling someone who about to jump off a bridge to not jump and not really understanding why they are at the point to begin with. I've seen people share at meetings and have harsh words thrown at them. Call it "tough love"....I just call it half listening and talking kind of reckless. Last week was not good, and I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to this week all that much.