Look, for starters, I know we are all here(hopefully) because we feel ousted by the world that we live in. I don't think that I'm being too forward when i say, we all are aware that we should see a doctor for ailments or illness's affecting us but we are too stubborn or scared to do so, or maybe we would rather have a chat with our peers because thats all we really want. Every time someone has told me you need to see a doctor it has pissed me off to the point of no return, this statement makes me want to commit more to doing it than any other thing. I'm not sure about anyone else but being apologetic and shit like that just pisses me off. Maybe I am a different kind of suicidal freak than most of you, but I feel like there are more people on here like me that just are afraid to voice there opinions. I'm tired of clicking on new posts and seeing a thread and clicking on it and the first part of it is have you spoken to a doctor or something along those lines. I dont want that, i know that, Im not sure what other peoples feelings are on the subject. I mean unless all of you people just want sympathy, and to be pitied. My posts are sometimes harsh and realistic and as i have progressed since my last attempts, i have realized that everyone wants sympathy and pity. Don't get me wrong I will abuse anothers pity if i have to, it is a weakness. And in real life don't start getting sympathetic as I tell you my story and want to help me, because it wasnt a cry for help, it was a story. But if you do I will abuse your sympathy and i will not feel bad about it. If someone offers to help, call there bluff and put there ass's to work. Now with that being said, Im pretty sure as we are all suicidal or have been in previous lifes, that we our completely apathetic towards other peoples stories. Sure you can write words that mean something other than you say and try to make it who you are, but your only kidding you. I would say that most of us our outcasts, and some of us have lived our lives to the fullest(whatever that means), but could you speak the words you say to someone, face to face and be rejected and not want to harm yourself. I dont know but when i tell someone to go see a doctor its because of a cough or rash, because by telling someone they need to see a doctor because of there mental health is spitting in there face. You are telling them that through there dispositions that they are broken, when they are not, they were born that way. I mean just because the clock is ticking. doesnt mean that time is moving forward. Sometimes we are right where we need to be until we can proceed onto the future.