I swear it is basically impossible to meet someone in real life who just gets me(at least to a certain degree I'm tipsy now. I plan on taking more pills with alcohol on Friday. I was finally able to get some adderall. we'll see how that reacts with the other drugs. Anyways, not many people out there are really in touch with their feelings and true need. They cover it up with a bunch of bullshit. Like those people who talk about how Kurt Cobain would have saved music if he were still alive. Those people don't know shit about Cobain(I'm no expert either) but I get the feeling that he won't care for most of his "fans" I think the guy was really talented but I'm not surprised he killed himself. If I had the kind of money he had I would still be trying to commit suicide. I also feel that parent's getting divorced at an early age connection with him. Probably why I'm so fucked up. Anyways, I've been drinking and I told myself that the next time I was drinking alone that I would try playing the hanging game.