Thats exactly what I feel like, it feels like I'm the cause of my families pain. I'm always getting the blame.For 4 years I've been building up rage, hate, anger, sorrow, and sadness inside. My dad blames me for my computer crashing and he yells at me if something happens to his yard equipment. I don't show my sorrow by cutting my wrist, If I was temped enough to kill myself I would just pull the trigger, not slice my arms for attention. I try to hide it as much as I can. It feels like I'm causing everyones pain by doing something I don't have any control over, I'm always at the wrong place at the wrong time.These feelings have been gone for about a month and there finally coming back. I'm tired of making everyone else miserable, I want to end my life to make there's better. I don't care if anyone responds I just needed to tell someone.