I want to self harm. And i know it doesn't help and scars don't go away for years.. I havent done it in a few months but i always return eventually. I get to thinking of how pathetic i am. How i cant hurt myself because i'm weak. So i have to do it to show myself i'm strong. That i can take pain and not be a completely worthless p*ssy. Anyone else feel like this? I dont see it anywhere, just the opposite really. I keep tellin myself that theres nothing wrong with me, but even i'm having trouble buying that.