today I went to my therapist and i had a really good conversation with her about how I felt about myself. Long story short I told her that I felt like I don’t really matter and that while I’m not suicidal, my life doesn’t really have a purpose and I burden those around me. My therapist told me that I matter to her and I matter my family and that people care about me more then I believe they do. I got really choked up and it made me think about the times my family comes through for me when I really need them and I guess I forget about that because I’m so busy hating myself. She told me to make a list of reasons why I matter and to ask family members what they love about me and write one thing down every day. I guess I needed to hear that someone else cares about me even when I don’t care about myself. Not having friends is something that has always hurt me personally and I judge my worth on the number of friends I have so it’s always been pretty much zero. Maybe my negative self image effects my ability to make friends? Maybe I just haven’t found the right person? Who knows, but I do know I have to learn to love myself first.
Reasons that I matter
- Thread starter cvb2377
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Yes, that's it, exactly. I think that's the first step to finding contentment in life. Maybe 'love' might be too strong a word and feeling at the start. Self-respect might be an easier first step, which could lead to 'like', and then who knows, that could even lead to 'love' 
It sounds to me like you've got the right instincts, cvb.
It sounds to me like you've got the right instincts, cvb.
