I've been living day to day for the past year or longer, thinking about suicide every day. I'm out of reasons to continue doing this. Every month I'm more miserable than the one before. I've finally received everything I need. It's supposedly a foolproof plan and I've planned it out and followed instructions carefully. I'm going to start the process and get in my bed and never wake up. Nothing sounds so good as just going to sleep and never waking up. I can't wait to never see another day of this miserable world where people do nothing but hurt each other. I'm not angry or sad anymore, just worn down and ready for it to be over. The best days are behind me and it was a really good life. I feel so bad for all the young people who are burdened with similar feelings. I'm very fortunate I lived 42 relatively happy years before ever feeling this way and thinking of suicide. So many people have these feelings because of finances, no job, health issues, etc. I'm very healhy, have a great job and plenty of security. It doesn't help, these feelings of hoplessness and misery affect people in all situations. I really think I'll go through with this. I just can't find any reasons to keep continuing this lonely, regret-filled existence. I don't care what anyone will think when I do it. All I care about is not being here anymore.